XOXO, YSL ♥

2012-02-13T02:24:00.000+08:00

"No, looks are not everything. But they do affect A LOT of things and is undisputedly important in this world." -Xiaxue

2012-02-11T01:13:00.002+08:00

Sometimes, I ask myself this question.

"What if one day, all my friends leave me?"

You know, it's scary. It's like, what if all of them get married and lead their own lives? I mean, it's definitely a good thing for them but I know that we'll have less time spent together. I feel that as we grow up, we tend to worry more about such things. Or maybe I'm the only one.

I realized that I've been very.... idk how to say. But it's just that I keep dwelling on things that I can't change. Everyone has already moved on, but I am still refusing to step out of it. I'm just like that. I don't know why.

Today has been an extremely bad day for me. Hope that everything will be better tomorrow.

The thing about me is that I dwell on things repeatedly. When people have moved on, I'm still here, refusing to fall out of the sweet oblivion.

Itwillbebetter,

YSL ♥

2012-02-08T11:09:00.008+08:00

Pardon me for spamming their photos. I can't resist. :)

These photos have been taken very long ago, at least for a good few months already. Hahaha! Just thought that y'all might miss their cute faces so I posted them. Yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah, I know I've uploaded them on Facebook already BUT can't I upload again??!!!?!??!??!!??!?

Ok, chill.......

Here goes! :)

When Mr Bangs was younger...
So greedy~
Hahahahhaa STEFAN?!

Cheeky boy ♥
What's with the expression, Uncle?
Stefan: Maybe if I act innocent, this woman will stop taking pictures of me...
Claire: YEAH THANKS THEN IT'S MY TURN NOW!!!
#1 darling! ♥
Also can't be bothered with me anymore......
Ok, at least this is good. Love you darling! ♥
Thanks for the saliva on my Body Shop card....
Stefan: See la, embarrass me in your blog, chase away all my fans... I don't want to talk to you anymore.
Stefan: Kidding. PEACE SIS~

On the way for breakfast with my precious babies ♥
LOL @ Claire! ♥
Pretty girl ♥
Aww, so adorable!!!!! ♥
How photogenic I'm so jealous!!!!

Can you see Stefan's head? HAHAHA!
LOL Mr Bangs looks so funny!
Aww, my all-time favourite babies! ♥
XOXO ♥
The Sims ♥

KPO Stefan checking out the car when we were waiting for Aunty Helen in the carpark
LOL damn funny
Big butt Sim!

Ok, I heard you... Photos overload. I actually have a lot more to upload but I know that if I continue with my blog entry, all of you will be bored to tears. So, being as considerate as I always am, I'll stop here. :)

Anyway, who's chika on my tagboard? Every time I see a hyperlink, I won't dare to click. I'm afraid it'll be something bad like porn or virus. Hahaha.

Alright, continue tagging me but don't leave any URL cuz I won't click unless you're a "reliable source". HAHAHAHA :)

Time for Global Perspectives tutorial now. I hate this module so much. :(

Ok bye.

ImisstheSims,

YSL ♥

2012-02-07T15:45:00.004+08:00

Wow, it has been quite some time since I last blogged with photos. It's February already. Time passes so fast!!!!! Omg it's kinda scary especially whenever I remember that I'll turn 20 next year. Whaaaat........... I don't want :'(

So anyway, this is not gonna be a proper entry BUT I'll upload some photos to update you about my February 2012. You may have seen the pictures on Facebook already but I just need to upload them here to spice it up a little. Hahaha. :)

Babe actually bought this for me because he said that I have many blackheads. As insulting as it may sound, I think that he cares and it's so sweet of him! ♥

You MUST MUST MUST enlarge this to read it. It's super hilarious omg. I wish I could do it to Babe but too bad I sent him this picture and he would have guessed it's me who's playing a prank on him. Hahaha. Btw this photo is taken from the Internet. It didn't happen to anyone I know. HAHAHA!!!!!

Mel bought me this reed diffuser for my room because I told her I like it. Aww, so nice~ Thanks! ♥

I actually used my food miniature boxes to hide it so that my parents won't see. If not, they will ask me to throw it away! Hahaha.

This whatsapp group chat was created immediately after our SIP briefing! Did I mention that I'll be going for my internship on 27th Feb? Yes, that's like less than 1 month later!!!!!! Omg..... I'm really very excited BUT I hope that I won't be grouped with anyone. I'd prefer to work alone than to work with someone I don't really know well... :(

Hahahaha internal joke with Dar, Siying and Angie at the group chat! Love such times with them!! :)

Proudly presenting my huge pimple on the right side of my face. It is so annoying and disgusting!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :'(

Sexy Isaac showing off his long leg~

The used-to-be 小圆圆 who's now all grown up and handsome! ♥

I need to tell you guys this. After waiting for so many months, I am finally resuming my Sign Language classes! Yes, they FINALLY sent me a confirmation email that the class will begin this week.

YAY I AM SOOOOOOOOOO EXCITED!!!!!!!!!!

My class will be on every Sunday 2-5pm. It's the Advanced Stage 1 (AS1) and I hope I'll be able to cope with Freddie as my instructor. Never been taught by him before but then again, besides Ai Ling, every instructor I had was different from the previous stage.

Ok, why am I talking about this?

The point is that...

I CAN'T WAIT!

I really hope to finish my Sign Language AS1 and AS2 asap so that I can finally finish the whole course. I'd really want to be a Sign Language instructor but I don't think I'm up to standard.

Ok, I'll talk more about this next time. I have to rush for lesson now. I'll blog again soooooon! Oh, and please keep those tags coming in!!!!! No one is tagging me :(

PleaseknowthatIamstillhere,

YSL ♥

2012-02-04T00:54:00.000+08:00

There is a love in me raging, Alegría. A joyous, magical feeling.

2012-02-03T00:10:00.001+08:00

It has been a month since I went for my SVT catheter ablation. The experience was really a scary one but I'm glad I've done it.

Weeks before my ablation, I've been reading up quite a bit online to prepare myself. Even though many people told me that I was overreacting, I still read up. It was the brain telling me to do so, because I was so eager to know how I'd feel after the ablation.

My main concern was how I'd feel after the anesthetic wore off. I read online and there were many different responses. Some said that they felt totally fine, some said that it was horribly painful, some said that they were to be bedridden for 3 hours, and some said that they couldn't walk.

I was scared, because the range of answers was so wide I didn't even know which category I'd fall into. Alas, I went for the surgery and I woke up crying because it was so painful. I was also instructed not to get off the bed for 12 hours. It wasn't what I read. And I felt even more afraid.

12 hours. Why was it always 4 times the normal? My heartbeat, my bedridden duration, my everything. It was kinda scary but I didn't bother asking because I knew that I just had to listen to whatever the doctor said.

Then, I read about the side effects. I saw that I'd have a few palpitations after the ablation before I fully recover. My doctor discussed that with me as well. He said that he'd give me 1 year (i.e. until 3rd Jan 2013) to observe. If I still have palpitations, it means that the abnormal nerve is still in me and I will have to go for another ablation.

Yes, one more time.

It kind of scared me, and I told myself that if that's the case, I would choose not to go for the ablation. I'd rather live with it, having unexpected attacks at the most random timings, having that type of pain and discomfort that not many of you have felt before.

It never occurred to me that I'd have SVT. It's nothing serious, I know, but it's causing my parents to worry a lot about me. I felt so bad, but what's worse was that I had to hide a few attacks from them before I let them know about the serious ones. Before I knew the severity of SVT, I had to admit that I was very afraid because I didn't know what was wrong with me. It's so terrifying because I had no one to share with.

And then I finally told them and they brought me to the cardiologist and Dr Ng diagnosed me with SVT and we went to another cardiologist for a second opinion and it turned out that she was Dr Ng's wife (-.-) and we went back to Dr Ng to seek his opinion for treatment and he gave us two choices which were ablation or long-term medication and because they did not want it to become a chronic illness they decided to opt for ablation.

About the ablation, I'm sure no one wanna read my rants anymore, so I will spare you this time round. And then comes the side effects.

What I experienced after the ablation were:

1) Extreme fatigue

2) Pain (so much so that Dr Ng asked if I wanted to be hospitalized for another day)

3) SCARS

4) Weird sensation in my heart but not attacks

That's about it. I got much better after a few weeks and I thought that it was the end of this whole saga.

I was wrong.

Just before Chinese New Year, I had another attack. It was like the one before. Rapid heartbeat, dizziness, nausea. I didn't have my reader along so I couldn't take my pulse, but I'm sure it hit 180bpm at that time. I took my medication (which obviously didn't help) and decided to rest for a while. The only good thing was that my symptoms were no longer as bad as before the ablation. In the past, I'd feel like fainting, vomiting, and just collapsing. The attack would last for a few hours too! But after the ablation, the attack I got was milder in the sense that it lasted for only a few minutes.

Wanted to call Dr Ng since forever to consult him about my condition, but I kept procrastinating. Yes, I procrastinate even in this matter.... But anyway, I called him yesterday and he said that it shouldn't be the case. I told him that I actually read online and some patients got the same symptoms. He was shocked that I actually read up about ablation. Haha.

He asked me to take good care of myself and to observe my condition. If it happens again, I need to visit him asap. But he assured me that he has a good feeling about the ablation and that the nerve has been successfully gotten rid of. Well, we can't tell now though. He's giving me a year to observe.

I know what I went through wasn't as painful and arduous as other patients. There are people who went through medical treatments worse than me (don't get me started on Charmaine or I'd cry) but they didn't complain. Yet here I am blogging non-stop. Well, it's probably this huge sigh of relief that I'm finally (or rather, almost) done with this cardiac thing.

1 month has passed. 1 attack since then. 11 more months to go. Please let nothing happen.

Cherishyourhealth,

YSL ♥

2012-02-02T20:38:00.003+08:00

I have always enjoyed watching such performances. It's really interesting and so.... I don't know how to describe it because my command of English isn't good. My limited vocabulary won't be enough to reiterate how amazing the performers are! Please watch them to feel my excitement, especially the last video. I watched that in Macau and it was awesome!!!

Iwannawatchthemall,

YSL ♥

2012-02-02T14:36:00.001+08:00

With so many things going on in my mind, I am blogging in Global Perspectives lecture now.

Ever since that blog post yesterday, I haven't been myself. Yesterday was filled with tears and emotions, today is filled with angst and irritation.

Sincerely appreciate it if you guys don't irritate me any further. Thanks!

Myeyesaregoingtoclosesoon,
YSL ♥

2012-02-02T03:00:00.001+08:00

As I read Charmaine's blog, I thought about my Grandma and Uncle who lost to cancer. I think 3 of my other grandparents (whom I've never gotten a chance to see) died of cancer too. I'm not very sure about that.

Come to think of it, if that's really the case, cancer has taken 5 family members away from me. F-I-V-E.

I can't help but to cry so hard every time I think about it. Even as I am blogging now, I'm bawling my eyes out.

The pain is indescribable. I can't describe this. It's like, I've never really spent quality time with them, but they had to leave me so soon. I didn't even get the chance to hug them once more. I didn't even get a chance to say goodbye to any of them.

When Grandma left, I was in school. When Uncle left, I was on the way to my aunty's house to pick smth up.
When I was born, my 3 other grandparents were not around.

Why?

I hate this feeling. I hate this feeling. I hate this feeling. I hate this feeling. I hate this feeling.

I want to control my tears but I am sorry I can't. They just keep rolling down my cheeks.

I feel so terribly hurt whenever I'm reminded of the deaths of them. I would constantly remind myself not to think about how much they suffered before they passed away, but every time, it ended up in an abject failure and like tonight, tears flowed down as if from a tap.

I can't express enough how devastated I am right now. It's 3.08am in the morning and here I am on my bed, with my iPhone, blogging and crying at the same time; making myself sound barely coherent.

I know that there is nothing I can do. All I can say and do is to cherish every single one around you. Never take anybody for granted. You'll regret it one fine day.

I know I am selfish, but I'd rather die before any of my loved ones so that I wouldn't need to bid another eternal goodbye. However, I reflected. It should be the other way round if I love them. I don't know why I'm talking about such stuff. Maybe because I'm afraid, maybe because I'm exceptionally emotional tonight.

To all who have lost the battle to the terrible monster named Cancer, you've won in my heart and I will always be proud of you.

And I'll never forgive this monster.

Missyousomuch,
YSL ♥

2012-02-02T01:33:00.004+08:00

How do you feel when nobody trusts you? How do you feel when you fall badly and scar yourself permanently? How do you feel when everyone misunderstands you? How do you feel when someone you love says that he/she hates you?

Do you feel upset? Do you feel hurt?

Even if you do, does it feel worse than having to see your own child disintegrate and eventually die before you?

I don't know if you've heard of this blog, but I've been following it for as long as I knew it existed. It's actually a blog meant for Charmaine, the "Feisty Princess", maintained by her Mommy Cyn, Godma Jolene and another friend named Charlene.

The blog is mainly about how Charmaine, a sweet-looking girl whose smile melts and touches everyone's heart, battled with her cancer, her difficult days, her kind-of-got-a-little-better moments, her no-we-are-totally-wrong days, her hospitalization stays, her sufferings, her medications, and finally, her death.

Every time I read this blog, tears will definitely well up in my eyes. It's hard not to cry. Even as a stranger, I feel for this family, let alone their friends and relatives. I'd leave it up to you guys to read it or not, but I just wanna say something.

I really admire Charmaine's Mommy Cyn and Brother Jase. They have been so brave ever since Feisty Princess' death. I... I am lost for words. I can't describe it. You have to read it to know what I'm talking about.

I feel that Mommy Cyn has already done her best to cope with her daughter's loss, even though she always claims otherwise. I know I wouldn't be able to fully understand how she feels, but somehow, a major part of me just wanna contact her and let her know that she's a brave woman. I wanna send a huge chunky paragraph of words to encourage her, and let her know that everyone is supporting her and Jase.

I really wanna give her moral support. Even though some might not think that it is practical, to me, I think it does. I don't know if it'll be the same for Mommy Cyn, but I feel so terribly hurt whenever I read her entries for Charmaine. It's really heart-wrenching.

I hope that one day, Mommy Cyn will be able to pull herself together, with support from her relatives and friends, and her son, Jase. In all honesty, both Mommy Cyn and Jase have been doing really well and even though I'm a nobody to them, I'm very proud of them!

Also, Charmaine's story has also touched me tremendously. I hope that this little Princess is free from all the sufferings, pain, and medication, and is looking over her Mommy and Brother in wherever she is. Little warrior, you've done it and you did well. It was a difficult battle, but I'm sure that in many hearts, you're the ultimate winner.

Although you're gone, you taught everyone some valuable lessons in Life, and these we'll remember forever. We should all learn from you to be optimistic and cheerful. We should all learn from your fighting spirit. We should all learn never to give up. I don't know you personally, but I am envious of those who knew you, because it must have been such a joy and pleasure to interact with you.

Dear Charmaine, your story has touched countless hearts and we're all proud of you. Stay happy in wherever you are, and remember to look out for those you love dearly. I don't know if this is true, but if possible, appear in their dreams. Trust me, even though they will wake up with tears rolling down their cheeks, they will be more than happy to see you once more.

Click here for her blog. Trust me, your tear glands will be immediately activated. Mine did, and I'm sure yours will too.

Wishing all the best to Charmaine's Mommy Cyn, Brother Jase, Godma Jolene, and all who love her. Y'all are awesome. :)

XOXO,

YSL ♥

2012-02-02T01:18:00.003+08:00

Hello guys! I've finally added a tagboard here. Please feel free to tag me because it'll make me feel more motivated upon knowing that I still have people reading my not-very-interesting updates! :)

I will blog again soon. Not tonight though. I'm really busy with my assignments. The avalanche is back to haunt me :( Shall go on a short hiatus before I continue with my loooooooooooong posts. For now, I'll TRY to update in bite-size yeah. :)

Love y'all.

Till then, please miss me. X

Goodnighteverybody,

YSL ♥

2012-01-29T16:36:00.007+08:00

Today, I read an article regarding early childhood teachers. Do take some time to read it especially if you look down on us.

http://theonlinecitizen.com/2010/03/early-childhood-teachers-why-are-they-being-frowned-upon/

"I know someone from Australia and she told me a story that stayed with me for a long time.

She had gone to a party and met some new people, but there was one gentleman that she remembered in particular. They had a casual conversation and he asked about her profession. With such pride, she announced that she just completed her research with such success that she was awarded a PHD. He was impressed and congratulated her.

Then came the next question, “What was your field of study?”

“Early childhood”, she replied.

Almost instantly, he cracked a smile and said “Yeah right. What is it really?”

Now she felt offended and assured him that it was not a joke.

“You mean there is a PHD in early childhood? How hard could that be?” was what he said.

She is an incredible woman who had faith in researching early childhood, but was mocked and ridiculed for her choice.

Recently, another friend of mine confided in me and said that she had never felt worse in her life. She had to admit to her own family that she has been studying in the early childhood field and was pursuing a career as a pre-school teacher. She said, “I saw the change in how they treated me and it hurts.”

She had kept that secret for three years and felt that after earning a degree in early childhood, she would earn some respect from her own family. She was wrong. Her own family loathed her in pity and shame. But why? Is a pre-school teacher really someone who should be frowned upon? Should they be degraded to the point that they don’t deserve respect?

Early childhood teachers in Singapore are not just stereotyped. This impression that some have of us is completely wrong. We live by the words of Sigmund Frued, Lev Vgotsky and Jean Piaget. Their research with children transcends the ordinary and has inspired how all of us view children.

In the early 1900s, children were not respected as unique individuals but merely treated as smaller adults. Child labour was a norm and parents refuse to send children to school. It is the work of these bright minds and the teachers who took their research to heart that made the world look upon the early years as the turning point of an individual’s life.

Within these early years, 75% of the child’s brain is developed. The first three years is the critical period, where the rate of acquisition of new skills is at an optimum. Based on this research, teachers all around the world have been unceasing in their efforts in providing exceptional care to children. We lift children high up in the air so that the world can see them. We give them the confidence to be themselves and we show them that the world is theirs to conquer. The way I see it, an early childhood teacher can either give you confidence or crush it. This is because a child never forgets and they take good and bad experiences with them throughout their lives.

For those who are still wondering, yes there is a Degree, a Masters and a PHD programme in early childhood and it is not based on how you teach ABCs. We learn child psychology to understand the emotional ups and downs in a child’s life. We learn first aid so that we can nurse a child in emergency situations. We learn brain development so that we can develop their cognitive abilities.

Before you start to judge pre-school teachers, realize that you have put your prized treasure in our hands. Your children is the nation’s future. The people you degrade are the very people who fill the hearts of your children with compassion, love and joy. These people whom you frown upon are the very people who would be there whole-heartedly for your children even when we are being mocked at. You trust doctors with your lives and you respect them for their service. But teachers are responsible for something more important — the lives of your children — and you degrade them? Within those school hours, teachers are responsible, for the health, safety, emotional well-being and academic development of your children. We don’t do it for the money. We do it because we see children like no else does, for their potential.

We will dash into a burning building for them. If that does not earn us the respect, I have no choice but to lose faith in humanity. I stand proud as a teacher and I hope many others who are in the field of early childhood would join me."

I know that some of you might not read everything, and thus I feel that it is pointless to explain to y'all. Well, it just kinda speaks up for early childhood educators. I'm not trying to make my profession sound like the most noble one on Earth, but I feel that just like any other profession, early childhood educators deserve respect too.

Weareallthesame,

YSL ♥

2012-01-26T20:23:00.000+08:00

Wow! I just checked my blog stats and I was shocked to know that 93 people viewed my blog yesterday! I know that 1-2 views definitely came from me because I refresh my blog before and after I post an entry, but what about the other 91?!!!!

Seriously, it gets kind of scary when you don't know who's reading your blog. I don't mind people reading it, if not I would have privatized it, right? But I just wanna have a rough idea of who are reading it!!!!!!

93 is not a big number but for a nobody like me, it is! I'm not some famous blogger who gets a few thousands hits per day. To be able to hit 20 is already a big deal! Let alone 93........

I know I am making a mountain out of a molehill but....... aiya never mind. LOL.

Alright, I have tons of assignments waiting for me to attend to. I'll blog again sooooooon! :)

Iwannaloseweightsososososobadly,

YSL ♥

2012-01-25T02:50:00.001+08:00

Someday, I hope to be proud of myself.

Goodnight,
YSL ♥

2012-01-24T01:44:00.008+08:00

No, I'm not here to tell you about how I spent my Chinese New Year. I'll do so when I have more pictures to share. BUT I HAVE SOMETHING TO SAY....

I'm damn freaking depressed because I look super fat in every photo, I'm serious. Sigh I really don't know what to say. I just hope that I can lose weight easily :(

I am really tired of complaining how fat I am. People just don't understand. It's the kind of sense of insecurity that I feel and.... sigh it's ok, you skinny people won't get it.

Let's move on to what I'm here for!

Today, I'm gonna show you my collection of lotions. I really love lotions (be it body lotion or hand cream)! You'll never go wrong if you buy me lotion as a gift. HAHAHA oh and perfume too! Preferably floral scent. HAHAHHA!!!

Edmund gave me this for Christmas 2010 and I haven't even finished using it. I love it though! :)
Bought all these from Takashimaya and I really love the scent especially the baby blue tube on the extreme left. :)
"Stolen" from Venetian (left) and Galaxy (right), Macao. Yeah, from the hotels! Hahahaha. :)
Don't underestimate Vaseline. I really love the scent and the texture! :)
Omg I've been using this since young and it's really good! :)
Bought this from Hong Kong's Sasa to try because apparently, Cindy Jie Jie told me Jurlique is a good brand and that I would love it! :)
Mel got the perfume and I got the lotion! Haha. :)
This candied ginger series is so pathetic. No one likes it except me. :( BUT I LOVE YOU CANDIED GINGER :)
The body icing that Wei Lee bought for me from Sephora for Christmas 2011! :)
Crabtree & Evelyn lotion set (I finished the hand therapy already) that Cindy Jie Jie or Aunty Helen gave me! :)

Random sakura hand cream that I bought from Japan. :)
L'occitane's Verbana series :)
Random oatmeal hand cream that I bought from Hong Kong's Sasa to try! :)
I LOVE THE SCENT OF THIS OMG!!!! Val bought it for me from USA and it's damn good. Does anyone know where else carries this? :)
MY ENTIRE COLLECTION! :)

Actually to be very honest, it seems that I don't have many. BUT I REALLY HAVE QUITE A BIT AND I'M AFRAID I CAN'T USE THEM ALL. Is there like an expiry date for lotions? I have a few that I haven't opened months/years after I purchased them!!!!!!!!!!!

Ok that's all.

Byebyebyebyebyegongxifacai,

YSL ♥

2012-01-22T23:15:00.002+08:00

When the going gets tough, the tough.......... gives up.

Iamthe'tough',

YSL ♥

2012-01-21T01:18:00.001+08:00

It's 1.08am now and I am blogging using my iPhone. I can't freaking get to sleep because...

1) I really feel like vomiting but I can't
2) My nose is blocked and when I lie down, I can't breathe

By the way, let me update y'all about my post-ablation situation. Yes, you're bored of it, I know... BUT LET ME SAY THIS CUZ IT IS IMPORTANT.

Yesterday, that is 20th Jan 2012 (Friday), I had my first ever attack after the ablation! I'm given 1 year to monitor my situation and if it happens again, there MIGHT be a possibility of recurrence.

Whaaaaat.... It has only been less than 3 weeks! But anyway, I guess it's pretty normal to have a few attacks after the ablation. Idk, but that's what I read online.

Babe told me to call Dr Ng first thing in the morning. I hope that it's nothing serious if not..... LOL another ablation wth.

(Sidetrack: I actually stuffed tissue into my nose and LOL I hope the nostrils don't expand hahahhaha)

So anyway, I doubt it's serious because the symptoms were not so bad. At least, I didn't feel like fainting or vomiting. And the best thing was that it lasted for a few minutes only!!!! No more 3-4 hours kinda attacks!

Well but I still hope for good news. Will let you guys know again tomorrow!

Time flies! In a few days' time, it's gonna be Chinese New Year. It will be the 5th one without Ah Ma. Things have definitely gotten back on track for everybody, but I won't deny that sometimes, the misses for her escalate soooo much. I miss her very much. And I wanna see Ah Gong. :'(

Whenever I see people complaining about their parents or grandparents, I feel like slapping them. Well I know they are free to tweet whatever they want but sometimes, I really wonder how they even have the heart to talk bad about them. Sigh....

Ok, enough of such random topics. I shall try to fall asleep now because I have to work at 9am!!!!!

Oh wait! Let me tell y'all something.

I AM SLEEPING WITH MY LIGHTS SWITCHED OFF TONIGHT!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #cheapthrill

Sweet dreams to all! x

Loveallofyou,
YSL ♥

2012-01-19T23:00:00.004+08:00

Despite the strong desire to skip school tomorrow, it is so terrible being sick. I was down with a flu yesterday night and I almost used up the entire box of tissue paper. I even had to sit to sleep because my nose was very blocked. It was totally unbearable.

This morning, I told Yi Lei that I could sense a fever coming, and she said that it was the "ehng" feeling. You must pronounce it with the nasal accent. HAHAHA damn funny. But anyway, true enough, I've developed a fever.

My temperature is 37.9°C now. I told myself that if my temperature hits 38.0°C tomorrow, I will self-declare a day off. Hahaha!!!

Ok, just for tonight, I'll sleep early. But then again, I feel so guilty for not getting any work done at home. I did some in school but yeah, time is running out.

SO YSL, CUT THE CRAP AND GET BACK TO DOING YOUR ASSIGNMENTS!!!!!!!!!

Sendsomelove,

YSL ♥

2012-01-19T18:48:00.006+08:00

I'm not the kind of person who actually bothers to apply make-up to cover up my blemishes. I don't know how to use make-up and I find it troublesome. At first, I thought that I'm not like a girl, but I came to realize that it is actually alright because most of my friends are like me too. Well, maybe it's an influential thing?

Anyway, the purpose of this blog entry is to seek your advice on how to take care of my skin. I just hope that there will not be any blackheads and pimples! They can get pretty disturbing and bring my self-esteem down by quite a bit, especially when I'm not very confident of myself already. So yeah... let me begin!

I'm not the kind of person who will use high-end skincare products. I use The Body Shop's tea tree collection and I actually like it! Furthermore, it's good to support The Body Shop because they are anti animal testing and some fair-trade thing. Just support them!!! :D

I use the tea tree collection but I don't know the sequence! I really really don't know. These are the products that I have. Pictures are taken from the Internet.

1. Tea tree skin clearing facial wash

2. Tea tree toner
3. Tea tree skin clearing lotion
4. Tea tree skin clearing exfoliating pads
5. Tea tree oil

I actually bought the toner and skin clearing lotion because the salesperson psycho-ed me! I went there to get my facial wash and tea tree oil for my overseas trip, so I asked if they have it in travel size. She recommended a travel set to me.

Yep, it looks like this! It contains travel-sized facial wash, toner, skin clearing lotion, and tea tree oil.

I was quite hesitant at first because I told her that I have never used toner and skin clearing lotion before. She told me that I should use and she somehow got the innate ability to psycho me to purchase it within 2 minutes. Yeah, that's how I landed up with those products.

I'm really a skincare idiot because I have no idea what's the sequence! I used to wash my face with the facial wash, then apply tea tree oil. 2 SIMPLE STEPS.

Oh! When I walked pass The Body Shop, I saw the exfoliating pads and I had to admit that I was pretty impressed with it. I've always wanted to get rid of my blackheads so I decided to buy it.

So yes, now I'm stuck with 5 COMPLICATED STEPS. I don't know what the correct sequence is. Is it Facial wash > Toner > Exfoliating pads > Skin clearing lotion > Tea tree oil?? I'm not very sure, but I don't use 5 of them together. On some days, I'll exclude 1-2 of them while on other days, I'll use everything. But it's not consistent.

I really wanna have good complexion. Look, if you're already not good-looking, the least you could do is to have fairly good complexion, no? So yes, please please please tell me what I should do!!!!!!

By the way, don't judge me for asking the following question. PLEASE I BEG OF YOU!

How do I apply toner?

LOL embarrassing lor what the shit! But I really don't know how to!

That'sall,

YSL ♥

2012-01-18T23:36:00.003+08:00

Thanks for making me feel so unimportant.

2012-01-18T10:29:00.001+08:00

Is it just me, or does nobody care anymore?

2012-01-18T10:23:00.003+08:00

I feel so... so choked up recently. It's like, I have so many things to say, but I have no one to talk to. I wish I could actually pluck up the courage to tell you guys how I actually feel, but I know that if I did, I'd land myself up in trouble.

1) You'll get angry and say that I'm too sensitive.

2) You'll not bother.

3) You'll tweet about how tired you are about such things.

4) You'll tweet some emo stuff and you end up being the "victim" and not me.

You know, before I tweet or Facebook about such stuff, I usually think twice, think thrice, and think a thousand times before doing so. This is because I know that my followers are not very kind. Seriously. (Well, not all but some.)

Whenever I'm upset, I spam tweets. And what I get in return are not words of comfort, but indirect tweets to say that I complain too much. Seriously, this is not how you want to feel when you're already not in a good mood. I wonder what's the EQ of my followers. Or rather, what's the EQ of those who tweet that.

My whole point of this blog entry is to say that... I have way too many things bottled up. I want to tell you, but I know I can't. This sucks.

If you say you're tired, then I think I'm 100000000x more tired than you.

Iwannagetitoffmychest,

YSL ♥

2012-01-17T10:53:00.004+08:00

Yesterday, Bertie whatsapp-ed me and she sent me so many funny pictures. I definitely had a fun time laughing! Hahahaha.

After working in so many preschool settings, I never knew there was a white crayon... REALLY -.-

HAHAHAHAHA THIS IS SUPER DUPER FUNNY BUT NO ONE LAUGHED :(
There's an inside joke to this!

OMG I LOVE THIS TOO!
Another inside joke!
Hahaha yes, that's all.

I miss Bertieeeee :(

Okbyebyebyebyebye,

YSL ♥

2012-01-17T09:54:00.001+08:00

How long have I not been blogging regularly? I am really sorry about that. I know that this sounds cliche but I really don't have enough time. I only have two wishes:

a) Have 500 hours a day, or
b) Wish that school will stop flooding me with deadlines

Of course, any normal human being will want the second option to come true. Well, I am normal and I am a human too... HAHA!

Actually I'm blogging using my iPhone now. I am having my Child Psychology lecture but I am way too bored and the only cure is my phone, therefore I decided to blog. Oh and it's to let you guys know that I'm still alive and kicking even though I have been MIA on this page for like 600000 years.

Ok la bye bye I'll blog again when I'm bored. Haha!! But please bear with the boring black font cuz if I blog with my phone, I can't change the font colour. That's so irritating!

Who's using Blogger app and knows how to change the font colour? Please fb/tweet/SMS/whatsapp me or do whatever you can to reach me k. 谢谢你们!

HappyTuesday,
YSL ♥

2012-01-12T01:56:00.002+08:00

I don't know why, but I feel so upset today. I don't know what's wrong and I don't know what has gotten into me. I just know that I'm upset but I don't know the reason. I don't even know what I'm talking about. My speech does not seem to be coherent at all. I guess I should just stop here? Bye and good night all.

ActuallyIthinkIknow,

YSL ♥

2012-01-08T10:48:00.015+08:00

A day before my SVT catheter ablation, the Sims joined my family for dinner at Serangoon Gardens Country Club. After that, they came over to our place for a while! :)

Since my laptop was on, I decided to photo booth with them since we haven't done so in a long long while. :)

Omg I love his expression in this photo. So cute!!!!!!!!!! ♥

He gestured for my mom to come over and take a photo together. HOW CUTE!!!!! ♥
Actually he did the "good" sign too but it wasn't captured! His good sign is actually his pointer, not his thumb. HAHAHA eh don't like that la. His motor skills have not fully developed ok!!!!!
Stone face...
He couldn't be bothered anymore.
He gestured for his daddy to take a photo with him and after this photo, Xiao Lu walked off. Stefan made a din and kept asking him to come back by waving his small little hand. HAHAHAA
AND HE ACTUALLY POSED FOR THE CAMERA!

Aww, how sweet can my little pumpkin pie get!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

At 10+, they went home as Claire had to go to school the next day.

After my ablation, they came over to visit me again. So sweet of them! ♥

My princess used my laptop to take photos of herself. Hahaha so cute!

I love this!!!!!!! ♥

Yeah, you can see my Disney Princess plaster from this picture!

My baby boy actually stopped and posed for the camera!!!!! He's really growing up :)

I taught him to press "Enter" so that the camera would capture the picture, and he learned it within 10 seconds!!!
So cute! ♥
He actually pressed "Enter" and posed for the camera!

My lovely girl!!!! ♥
Yeah, they painted nail polish on me to test the colours... -.-

She's so pretty omg!!!!!!!!! ♥
Hahahaa how cute! ♥

♥

Love you, my baby girl! ♥

Pulled Babe to take a photo with me too! Hahahaha. ♥

Actually.................

I HAVE SOMETHING FUNNY TO ADD ON ABOUT THE ABLATION! I know it might get awkward for y'all but never mind la, small matter only!

So I had my ablation on 3rd Jan, and x-ray on 4th Jan. OK LA I WAS JUST REMINDING YOU RIGHT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Before the ablation, the male nurse was taking down my particulars and he asked me when my last period was. I told him 31st Dec 2011 and he wrote it down on the form. When I did my x-ray, he asked me for my particulars again. I told him 31st Dec 2011 and he asked...

"Did I see you before?"

I told him I couldn't remember and he replied, "Yeah I think so! Were you at the ablation yesterday under Dr Ng?" and I nodded. He then said, "Yeah! I remember! I remember girls by the date of their last period."

LOL WTS DAMN HILARIOUS!!!!! But he was nice overall la, not a ckp that you guys might mistake him to be.

Ok, I know I keep harping on my ablation but I just can't help it.

Before the ablation, (the few) people who knew kept telling me not to worry because it'd be safe and that it's a minor surgery. I knew that too, but it was my first time and doubtlessly I'd feel nervous and afraid. You can't blame me for that. Each time I talked about it, they'd shut me up by saying, "You're gonna be fine." I felt that I couldn't even express my fear and concerns at all! I ended up googling "SVT Catheter Ablation" every single day and it actually added on to my nervousness! I was so scared but no one was willing to listen because all they could say was "It's a small procedure, not even a surgery or an operation, so you'll definitely be fine! You're worrying for nothing."

YEAH IF YOU WERE ME YOU WOULD FEEL THE SAME WAY TOO.

After the ablation, you have no idea how relieved I am because this means that I'll be SVT-less forever! Ok, not forever but at least for a certain period of time. This means so so so much to me because an attack would almost take my life (ok I'm exaggerating) and I'd feel so horrible. Now that the nerve is burned, or maybe only injured, I'd have a lower chance of getting an attack!

Aiya never mind. Just bear with me for a while because I'd still talk about my hospitalization/ablation from time to time, just like how I talked about The Lion King musical.

Speaking of which, I haven't blogged about The Lion King for quite some time huh.............

Okbyebye,

YSL ♥

2012-01-07T14:59:00.003+08:00

Sorry guys, I know that my previous post was very long. But I'm here to add on! Hahahaha.

This morning, I went to Dr Ng's clinic at Gleneagles to do a post-op follow up. I did an ECG (yes, again!!!!!!) and everything was normal. :)

Dr Ng told me about the ablation. He said that during the ablation, my heartbeat suddenly shot up to 340bpm! Omg that's like damn freaking fast la. I wonder how I survived that!

He asked me if I experienced anything after the ablation, and I told him I did. I've been feeling weird sensations in my heart and I feel as if an attack is approaching, though the attack never came. I told him that and he said it's normal. He said from today onwards, I'll keep having that feeling.

That's because he only burned the abnormal nerve, so that an incomplete circuit is formed and I won't receive the signals for palpitations anymore. The "weird sensation" is the aftermath of the incomplete circuit but that's better than having the palpitations itself.

He told me that there might be a chance of him only injuring the nerve, and not burned it. So yeah, there's still a chance of the abnormal nerve reappearing and yeah that means I might have SVT again.

He said he'll see me for another year and if I do not have signs of recurring, he'll officially discharge me! :)

Ok that's all. Will update you guys again!

Missyouguys,

YSL ♥

2012-01-06T18:20:00.005+08:00

Bonjour sweethearts! I apologize for the lack of updates! Don't worry though, because today I'm here to update this space with pictures and details! :)

But first of all....

HAPPY NEW YEAR MY DEAR READERS!

I hope that 2011 was nice to you and may 2012 be even better! Thank you to those who never left me and I promise to cherish each and every one of you more. Let's make 2012 a good one! ♥♥♥

Ok that's all. Bye.

KIDDING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Remember I promised you guys that I'll be doing a proper entry today? Yes, I'll keep my word, don't worry. :)

I don't know if you guys remember, but in the past month, I've been blogging random entries about me being scared. Some of you, or should I say, most of you, would be baffled.

"Why is this woman typing like that?"

"What the hell is she talking about?"

"Can someone please tell me what's going on with her?!"

I'm sorry but I only told a few of my close friends about what happened. Now that everything is over, I've decided to break the news to all of you. :)

Last Tuesday, I went for a minor surgery.

I was diagnosed with supraventricular tachycardia (SVT) in Jan 2010. It's basically having an abnormal nerve in the heart that causes the heart to palpitate on random occasions. My cardiologist said that for my build and gender, the average heartbeat is 70-80 bpm but for my case, my heartbeat can go up to as high as 200 bpm! Yes, it's damn fast.

When I get an attack, it can be at the most random occasion ever. The most serious one was when I was working at LEAP in late November 2011. I was doing nothing but I just got an attack and it lasted for a good 3 hours because the smart me didn't bring my medicine out. But anyway the medicine didn't work in the first place. LOL. I went to see my cardiologist that very week and he suggested ablation. We were quite indecisive at first, but after hearing that I only had two choices, we decided to try the ablation.

The first choice was ablation, a generally low-risk surgery that might have 5-15% rate of recurrence. The second choice was long-term medication, which hence makes my condition a chronic illness. Furthermore, my cardiologist said that when I get older, my body will get immune to the medication and it will not work anymore. SO WHAT IS THE POINT RIGHT? Lol...

So yeah, we decided to go for ablation. My cardiologist was so funny because on that day when we decided to opt for the ablation, he told me, "Ok, so I'll book you in this weekend." LOL what the shit, it was so sudden! Then I immediately told him that I'd call him to book the date again. Haha!

Ok, I know I should just shut up and get back to the surgery. I know I know... but you guys need to know what's happening first what! :( Alright, I'll begin now.

On 3rd Jan 2012, my parents brought me to Mount Elizabeth Hospital. I was supposed to be there at 9am but I reached a few minutes later.

I didn't know if I should press "pre-admission" or "admission" so I just pressed both. Apparently the "admission" number came first so I used that piece of paper and threw the "pre-admission" number into the bin. Hahahhaa.

The woman who registered me was so funny! She asked me if I purposely chose that date so I could skip 1 week of school. LOL I then told her I was still having holidays and she said something like, "Wow! Very few teenagers would use their holidays to go for an op! They would usually choose schooldays." HAHAHA which is very true I guess...

After all the registration procedures, a man who was nicely dressed came over and said, "Hi Miss Yap, I'm from the concierge and I'm here to bring you to your room. Do you need a wheelchair?" HAHAHA I immediately said "no thanks". I was perfectly normal before the surgery so I really didn't need it. Haha. Then off we went to the ward! It was an executive deluxe ward and it kinda looked like a hotel room.

While waiting for the nurse to come and do a blood test, Babe took pictures of me and the ward... LOL oh and my mom went for her medical check-up at level 16!

He occupied my bed because he was too sleepy! But shortly after he lied on the bed, the nurse came in to do a blood test and he had to get off the bed! Hahahaha hilarious dad I have huh?

I was so afraid because I've always had bad experiences with blood tests. I'd always have bruises after that and it'd be so super duper painful! But the nurse at Mt. Elizabeth was really skilled, I've gotta admit! She did it within a few seconds and because I looked away as usual, I honestly didn't know that she had already inserted the needle!

The first ever blood test that wasn't painful! :D

I was supposed to fast from 9am to 3pm, but I was super hungry and thirsty. I tried to go to the toilet to drink tap water without letting anyone know, but it was way too gross and I never liked drinking tap water even though it's safe here in Singapore. So yeah, I abolished the thought and decided to be good and continued fasting....

At 1-ish, Cindy Jie Jie, Xiao Lu and Claire came over to visit me! I've gotta sidetrack a bit so please bear with me!

It was Claire's first day at school that day and I was so glad and proud of her when she told me that school was fun and that she looked forward to the next day. My baby girl is definitely growing up day by day. :')

So yeah, they had their lunch in my ward and Mummy ate my share that the hospital gave. Yeah, in front of me, the hungry and thirsty me..............

At 2pm, I was supposed to change into the surgery gown (or whatever it's called) because my surgery was at 3pm. But I forgot until the male nurses came to my ward at 2.30pm and said, "We've gotta go." HAHHAHA what the shit, I panicked like nobody's business. I quickly get changed, went up to the bed and they pushed me to the theatre. Everything happened so quickly I didn't even have the chance to breathe!

As they pushed me to the theatre, it was so weird because everyone was staring at me. When I said "everyone", I really meant everyone. The nurses pushed me from level 6 (or was it 7?) to level 2, then walked a long distance to the operating theatre. And yes, during that long walk (but I was on the bed hehe), everyone really looked at me as if I was some kind of a freak!

Finally, we reached the theatre. My parents & the Sim's had to wait outside. I could see that they looked very very nervous and in all honesty, I was, too. But I had to pretend that I wasn't afraid and even bade goodbye to them with a smile. When I was inside the theatre, the nervousness escalated and I was nearly scared to death. Waited for my cardiologist to come from Gleneagles and during that time, the nurses (about 7-8 of them!) talked to me and did the necessary procedures.

1 asked me some questions like, "Is there any chance of you being pregnant?", 2 talked to me about the surgery, and the others were preparing for the surgery. After that, 1 nurse came over and she said she'd be inserting the IV in my left hand. I was sooooo damn scared because I had done it before in 2009 and it was extremely painful!

Just in case you don't know what's that, the above pictures should explain it all. :)

I was so scared and I kept covering my eyes and shunned whenever the needle was approaching. I AM FREAKING SERIOUS. Hahaha. It was so scary that 3 other nurses (1 male and 2 female) had to come and distract me. They stood on my right and asked me about my diploma course and the male nurse was so funny. He kept asking if there were guys in my course and stuff like that. Actually, I wasn't calmed down even though they were talking to me because while they talked to me, their eyes were on my left hand and the nurse who was about to poke it in. Then I said, "OMG please don't look at my left hand because that way, I'd know when she'll insert the IV!" Then they all burst out laughing and gosh, the nurse inserted the IV at that time. LOL it was damn painful! I COULD FEEL THE NEEDLE EACH TIME I MOVED MY HAND.

After she inserted the IV, I asked her, "Will there be any more injections?" She said, "Yes, there will be one more at your thigh. It'll be anesthetic and it can't be put through the IV. It's gonna be very painful." OMG I swear she made me freak out one more time. I understand that she had to prepare me but she made it sound so devilish and I was panicking like shit because I really x1000000000 abhor injections, not to mention anesthetic jab!

They said my oxygen level was low so they had to put a nasal cannula on me. Yes, I went to google an image of it for you guys to see. I purposely chose the funny version (ok I admit it wasn't meant to be funny but it is really hilarious) to show you guys! Hahahahaha!

Yes, it was this thing that went around my head that gave me oxygen through my nose. The oxygen was kinda thin and I had difficulty breathing when they put that there but I had no choice but to bear with it. It was horrible I swear.

Dr Ng finally came in and he told me that he'd insert some "sleepy liquid" into my IV to make me sleep. But in the meantime, I was still very worried about the anesthetic jab which the nurse told me would be very painful. However I did not know when they inserted the "sleepy liquid" and the next moment when I was awake, the surgery was done. -.-

When I was semi-conscious, I was still in the theatre with Dr Ng and the 7-8 nurses. I was in great pain and I even teared. I heard one of the nurses saying, "She's just like a baby." LOL WTS VERY PAIN WHAT... And don't think I didn't hear you!!!!!!!! LOL.

I felt nauseous and kept turning my head to the side because I thought I was going to vomit. Yes, I did that when I was semi-conscious! Dr Ng talked to me and I could hear him, but I just couldn't open my eyes and mouth to answer him. HAHAHA I don't know why. That feeling was really weird. He told the nurses, "She's not replying me but I think she's going to vomit. Insert some ............ (some medical term that I can't remember) into her IV now!" Wow what professionalism he displayed! Luckily he gave me the medicine or else I'd have created a mess in the theatre!

The surgery lasted about 3 hours and when I woke up, I was already in my ward. I had tears rolling down my cheek because it was really damn damn damn damn damn painful and uncomfortable. I couldn't move my legs at all and I told the nurses, then they hung this sign...

LOL hilarious. But anyway I think it was to inform other nurses who were on duty that I was not allowed to get off the bed because apparently I was to be bedridden for 12 hours after the surgery.

Woke up to seeing my mother and brother in the ward. So glad to see them but I was in pain and I think I gave them a shock as I woke up with tears all over. LOL. Mummy told me that Wei Lee dropped by earlier on but I was still sedated so she left for tuition already. Nonetheless, she left me a box of cakes that she personally baked. How sweet! Thanks sis! ♥

Later that evening, the butler served me my dinner. While eating, Melody and Raymond arrived. :) Shortly after, the Sims came over too! :)

Hahaha!

Babe only told the Sims my ward number and hospital because we didn't want everyone to come and visit me. But thank you all who SMSed me before and after my surgery to show your concern. Deeply appreciated! ♥

I felt so weak and tired and painful that night that I knocked out at 10+ after the nurse gave me 2 strong painkillers. Babe stayed overnight in the ward with me. I woke up several times that night because of the pain and discomfort that I felt. The nurse also came in many times to check my temperature and blood pressure and wounds when I was asleep. She kept apologizing for waking me up but the fact was that I was in great pain thus couldn't sleep and not because of her!!! :'(

The next morning, Dr Ng came in to visit me and check on my wounds. Oh wait, I finally got off my bed!!!! Hahahaha cheap thrill but it was really a nice feeling even though I couldn't walk properly.

I told him that I've been experiencing immense pain on my left side since the surgery and he confessed to me that he had to poke 3 or 4 times before inserting the needle. Other people only need 1 poke but why did I need 3-4 pokes?!!!!!! He said he was afraid that he punctured my lung so he suggested an x-ray to be done before deciding if I could be discharged.

Did x-ray and ECG that morning and I felt like puking so so so badly. But the irritating thing was that despite the strong feeling to vomit, nothing came out! So like, it was stuck all along and I had to bear with that nasty feeling throughout the stay!

Everything turned out fine and I was allowed to be discharged!

The staffs at Mt. Elizabeth were so very nice. The janitor who cleaned my room told me, "Girl ah, 你要保重！新年要到了，记得好好照顾自己，知道吗?" which means "Girl, please take care! It's gonna be Chinese New Year soon. Remember to take good care of yourself, understand?" Aww, how sweet~ :) The butler came in specially just to tell me, "Miss Shi Lee, please take care of yourself and remember to rest well. Get well soon!" How very nice of him, don't you think? :) When I was on my way to the lift, all the nurses came out and told me to take care and have a speedy recovery. My main nurse, Aurora, even came up to me and held my hands, saying, "Please take good care and get well soon." OMG SO NICE RIGHT!!!!!!!!!!! :')

P.S. I've complemented them through their website once I reached home and I've received their reply already. How efficient! :)

When I got home, I immediately bathed and changed my plasters. Hahaha!!!

I'd suggest to everyone who's planning to visit me to buy me boxes of plasters, preferably those with cute designs. HAHA joking la. I don't need them anymore. My wounds are recovering! :)

The MC that Dr Ng gave me... I told him that I only needed MC on 4th Jan but he said, "You have 8 days of MC!" I told him I'm not schooling yet so I really didn't need so many days but he said, "Never mind, I'll give you until Friday but make sure you have 8 days of rest at home." Hahaha!

The painkillers that I'm supposed to take but I refused to because the capsules are really huge and difficult to swallow!!!

The side effects of the surgery is that I'd feel the pain (but of course since the anesthetic has worn off!) and lethargy almost 24/7. The first few days after the surgery were torturous! I felt pain when I did the smallest action and I couldn't walk properly. The worst thing was I felt tired almost every single second, I'm serious! I'm so glad I've overcome everything and things are going back to normal now. :)

I'd like to thank so many people.

First and foremost, thank you to my Family and the Sims who were always there to show support. Without all of you, I wouldn't even have the courage!!!!! Love you guys!

Secondly, thank you to a handful of my Friends who knew that I was going through this. Thanks for all the encouraging text messages, calls and a touching video from my primary school friends. Love y'all!

Thirdly, thank you to Dr Ng and Assistants for making the SVT catheter ablation a success. It was painful so you guys lied to me....... but nonetheless, I'm thankful for everything and really, without all of you, I wouldn't have gotten rid of that abnormal nerve!

Fourthly, thank you to the Hospital Crew who took meticulous care of me when I was warded. Be it the nurses, butler or janitor, thank you so so much.

Now that everything is over, I'd love to express how relieved I am. You guys won't know how terrible I felt whenever I had an attack. I almost fainted and vomited each time an attack struck. I could do nothing because the medicine wasn't working, and it would last for a few hours before it gradually became better. It happened almost anytime and I wouldn't know when to expect it. Can you imagine the fear?

I'm glad everything is over and though there might be a chance of SVT recurring, I'm going to enjoy the days without SVT!!!!!!!!! YAY! :)

SPECIAL THANKS TO MY PARENTS WHO WENT ON A VEGETARIAN DIET ON THAT DAY TO PRAY FOR ME. YOU GUYS ARE THE BEST AND I LOVE YOU SO SO SO SO SO SO MUCH THAT WORDS CAN'T DESCRIBE. BEST PARENTS ON EARTH, NO DOUBT ABOUT THAT! X

HellyeahnomoreSVT,

YSL ♥

2012-01-03T11:26:00.001+08:00

HAPPY 2012!

Iwillupdatesoon,
YSL ♥

2011-12-23T07:23:00.002+08:00

Hello everyone! No, I'm not going to post a long and detailed entry now because I am rushing. I reached Singapore at 3+ in the morning and I'm waiting for my cousin to pick me up because I'm going to Hong Kong!!! No time to waste, gotta go.

BYE AND I WILL UPDATE SOON!

Meanwhile, take care and enjoy this Christmas with your loved ones :)

Lotsoflove,

YSL ♥

2011-12-17T21:53:00.001+08:00

Hello everyone! It is 10.50pm in Osaka now and as promised, I'm here to update since I have Internet connection in the hotel lobby!

It is really cold here and I am actually having a lot of difficulty typing on the iPhone! I hope the weather gets warmer tomorrow!!!

It's been pretty nice from the moment we reached. Haven't made any new friends but being as anti-social as ever, I really don't mind not making any. I'm very sure they are not as fun as my Europe tour mates :(

Ok I am going back to my hotel room now. It's getting really chilly and I need the heater so so so badly! I'll blog again if I have wifi. If not, see you soon!

Lovefromosaka,
YSL ♥

2011-12-17T01:24:00.002+08:00

Hello once again. My flight is delayed...... Oh my goodness, I wonder what time I'll reach Japan. :'( Ok I'll go back to Facebook now. Hehehe bye bye ♥

Missyouguys,
YSL ♥

2011-12-17T00:56:00.003+08:00

Hello dear readers! I am waiting to board the plane now and omg I'm kinda sleepy already... I hope I'll be able to watch at least one movie before I sleep onboard!

By the way, I have to tell you guys this. Remember I mentioned that I"ll reach Singapore at 10pm on 22nd Dec? It's wrong!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'll only be reaching at 3am on 23rd Dec. And what's the best thing? My flight to Hong Kong is at 10am, which means I need to reach the airport by 8am.

So............

Reach Singapore airport (3am) > Go home (4am) > Unpack & pack > Bathe > Leave house (7am) > Reach Singapore airport (7am) > Board plane (9.45am)

Omgggg seriously, good luck to me man!!!!!!!!!!!! :'(

Oh back to the topic. I'll be going to Japan! I'm so excited. People who have asked me to buy things...... please don't expect too much. I'll buy if I see something suitable. If not, please know that I didn't mean to NOT buy for you. DISCLAIMER AH.

I'll blog for as long as I can, until it's time to board the plane. Haha! Guys, please pray that it'll not be thaaaaat cold in Japan. I love winter but I really can't stand it when it gets too cold! Kinda can't tolerate that. Almost froze to death in Switzerland when it was -15 degrees! So yeah, PLEASE DO NOT LET HISTORY REPEAT ITSELF. :(

Shall log out and log in again because this computer only allows 15 minutes of usage and I'm left with 3 minutes. If I get to blog again, see you in a while. If not, I'll see you when I have connection in Japan. If not, I'll see you when I'm in HK and if I have connection. If not, I'll see you when I'm home.

OK LA JUST GO OK YSL.

Please get #goodbyeshilee trending on Twitter. Thanks.

LOLJK......

Bye and take care, darlings!

Lovefromtheairport,
YSL ♥

2011-12-16T20:04:00.003+08:00

Hello sweethearts! I'm going to go MIA once again.

For those who don't know, I am flying to Japan tonight! I will return on 22nd night BUT I'm flying off again on 23rd morning. Hahaha I will be going to Hong Kong and Macau. :)

In case I don't have internet connection in Japan, please know that this site isn't dead and that I'll update it once I am home. I hope that the hotels there have internet connection so that I can use Facebook, Twitter, FASHION STORY, BAKERY STORY, Instagram and Blogger. Hahahhaa!

Oh, you can still SMS me cuz it'll not incur additional cost on your side. But for whatsapp, I won't be able to read unless I have internet connection. Aiya say so much but you all will SMS me or not?!?!??!?!! Hahahha kidding la I still love y'all k. :) ♥

Take care and wishing all a Merry Christmas in advance! (I'll be spending mine in Hong Kong, maybe Disneyland, this year!!!!!)

Ok bye.

Till we meet (here) again...

Xoxo,

YSL ♥

2011-12-15T18:05:00.003+08:00

15th December 2011

I bade goodbye to a lovely pair of sisters and their mother.

I received a piece of news that is gonna make me very sad for months.

I got an emotional text from the person.

How now brown cow :(

2011-12-14T13:07:00.008+08:00

Oh hello again! Before I leave, I thought it'd be nice to share some pictures with you guys. Yes, they are backdated but I'm sure you'll wanna see them. Little updates of Stefan and Claire. :)

These pictures are taken when I stayed at their place on 25th October 2011. Yes, it's thaaaaat backdated. Hahaha but when I uploaded these photos, it felt like deja vu. Have I posted them here before?

#lastwarning to Stefan's face

LOL

BALLERINA

My greedy Princess ♥

And when we were camwhoring, look at what our little boy was up to!

He took Claire's schoolbag and file! This baby boy is ready for school! :)

Love them soooo much!

Xoxo,

YSL ♥

2011-12-14T12:34:00.002+08:00

BONJOUR DARLINGS!

Thank you so much for still reading my blog. It has been quite a while since I last posted a proper update, but all of you consistently check this site. I know it because I can track my blog views. :) THANKS GUYS, I LOVE YOU!!!!! ♥

What have you guys been doing recently? Enjoying the last few weeks of school holidays? Drowning in the sweetness of post A-levels? Busy preparing for Christmas? Or being involved in school matters like me?

I only have the time to blog now because I have been really occupied with school stuff! I had many assignments and projects piling up, 4 term tests in 5 days (Saturday, Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday), and talks to attend!!!! But hell yeah, I'm freaking done with my term tests! I'm so happppppiiiiiiieeeeeeeeee~ :D

Went for a 5h talk about RELATIONSHIPS last Friday. It was crappy because I could have used the time to study for my term tests! Ok, I admit that I brought my notes there to study but the environment was not conducive at all. I can't study in noisy areas because I really require absolute silence for information to be processed. But anyway, we took photos while waiting. :)

Er, please do not comment on the clearness of the two pictures above because the photographer did not know how to use an iPhone camera and she did not know how to tap to focus..... Artistic yo~

There was another epic incident that happened last week. The Health Sciences Authority (HSA) came to TP for blood donation. The girls and I were so excited about it because we really wanted to donate together. After class, 8 of us went to the Audi together for blood donation.

8 of us: Valerie, Jing Yi, Janice, Samantha, Felicia, Emily, Sok Ting and I.

We went there happily only to find out that we only got through the registration stage! ALL OF US (except Val but I'll come to that later) DID NOT GET THE DOCTOR'S APPROVAL TO DONATE BLOOD!!!!!!

Jing Yi and Janice had fever but I think the thermometer was cranky because they had fever when they tested at Doctor A. They went to Doctor B to take their temperature but they were fine. -.- Ok idk the sequence but whatever it is, the thermometer was weird. Lol.

Val managed to pass the doctor's stage and she was the only one who stepped into the blood donation area! We were so proud of her and damn excited for her. HAHAHA but the nurse came over and checked on her then she told her, "Your vein is too small and we can't inject. Take this stress ball home and exercise. Come back again in 6 months or 1 year."

LOL THAT WAS FREAKING HILARIOUS!!!!!!

So it turned out that all 8 of us couldn't make it............. -.-

But anyway, Sok Ting and Samantha went back the next day and they managed to donate! So proud of them! The only 2 who could donate out of the 8 of us!!!! Hahaha. ♥

That aside, I was busy with my term tests too! It was horrible because I had to study for 4 term tests!!!!

Saturday: Basics of Nutrition (4 chapters)

Monday: Applied Social Research (6 chapters)

Tuesday: Early Years Curriculum Integrated Project (5 chapters)

Wednesday: Child Psychology (7 chapters)

It was very hectic because I really did not have enough time to study at all. At times, I wanted to shout it out loud (like those in dramas) and tear my paper but I know that once I tore it, I'd be doomed. LOL so obviously I didn't. But my stress level was already at its peak. :'(

Child Psychology focus points
The war zone
Exam venues and times
Nothing better to do = Doodle on my notes
Random Instagram picture to keep me awake

Whatever it is, I'm so glad that everything is over!!!!!!! Yes, I still have projects and assignments to complete, but at least I'm done with my term tests! I won't talk about them until I get my results (as usual) but what I can say is that I am not confident at all. I won't expect good grades this time round.

Alright, I need to start packing already. Going out with Claire at 2.30pm so I'd better hurry! I'll update again soon. I have lots of photos to share! :)

Missyouguyssomuch,

YSL ♥

2011-12-09T22:32:00.001+08:00

Please don't make me feel unimportant.

2011-12-04T14:40:00.000+08:00

Oh, and just in case you miss him. :)

2011-12-04T14:28:00.002+08:00

I know I've been posting irritating entries recently, but I sincerely apologize for that. I have to warn you guys that for the next 1 month, my entries will be about the same. I'll try to include normal entries as well, but no guarantee.

I told myself that I should just stop posting such things on my blog because 99% of you don't know what's going on and you'll be baffled by all those entries. I'll talk about it when everything is over, but meanwhile, please do not worry. I'm ok. :)

I just wanna say that recently, I have been very abnormal. I get pissed off over the slightest thing. I get irritated easily. I get upset out of a sudden. This feeling is weird. I have never once experienced this before.

Today, someone maligned me of being "angry again la" when I did not even do a single thing to provoke him. I immediately stomped up and closed the door and sat by the wall to cry. I don't know what's wrong with me. I don't know why I'm behaving that way. I don't know if I'm ok.

I'm bound to be scolded or criticized for the way I behave, I know that. But guys, I really can't control my emotions and if I were to do my own portfolio, I'll mark that section as "rarely displays". If I have annoyed any of you, just accept my apology and refrain from talking to me for the next 1 month. I'll be super cranky.

I hate it that I'm feeling this way. It's not as if I'm going through anything big. Why do I keep harping on it? People will get irritated and so will I. I tried to stop thinking about it, I tried to stop googling, I tried to stop talking/blogging about it. I failed.

But I'll keep trying.

Once again, sorry for my erratic attitude. I still love you guys. But please do not try to annoy me in any way that you think is funny or interesting. Thanks.

Superduperx100000irritated,

YSL ♥

2011-12-03T01:26:00.001+08:00

I tend to think a lot at night. Tonight, I think about all my weaknesses/flaws.

I have no determination in doing things. I have always said that I want to lose weight, so I skip. I know it very clearly that it isn't gonna work but I just go ahead with it. So much so that my skinny friends are laughing at me for staying at this size.

I have no confidence. I always think that whatever I do isn't good enough. I mean, it's very often true. It's true that I can't play the piano well, it's true that I am not good-looking, it's true that my schoolwork isn't well done, it's true that I'm fat, it's true that everyone else doesn't need to put in effort to look good, it's true that everyone else plays the piano better than I do, it's true that everyone else doesn't need to work as hard as I do to get good results, it's true that I'm never good enough.

I don't know why but I always have this feeling that people around me look down on me. I know I should not be feeling this way but in all honesty, I think that they really do. I know I am mean for doubting them, but it's purely how I feel and definitely I hope I am wrong.

I don't wanna be the one who tried so hard but ended up in an abject failure. I don't wanna be the one who tried to be accepted by everyone but landed up in a mess. I don't wanna be the one who tried to be loved by everyone but failed. I don't wanna feel this way anymore.

Sometimes I gotta admit that I'm ashamed of myself. I care too much about how people feel or what others say, so much so that I neglect myself.

Dear me, please give yourself more attention and learn to love yourself for who you are. It's ok if people don't love you. It's ok if they look down on you. It's ok if you fail so many times. It's ok if the tries are to no avail. Take them as stepping stones to success. Learn to appreciate yourself.

I hope that one day, I'll be able to tell everyone that I'm proud of who I am. Despite being not physically pleasant, not academically inclined, not skilled in various ways, I'm still me and I love myself.

X

Goodnightall,
YSL ♥

2011-12-01T18:01:00.004+08:00

This morning, I finally called to book the appointment after delaying for 3 weeks. The date is fixed. I'll need to go down next week for a brief. Gonna be pricked (again) too but I guess that's nothing compared to what I'll be experiencing.

Today, I finally expressed my fear to you. But you seemed nonchalant. You told me that it's a small thing and there is nothing to be afraid of. It's gonna be very safe and I should just relax.

But you are not me.

It's not about the risk I'm afraid of. I know it's a small thing; everyone is telling me that. I know it's gonna be safe. I know I'll be ok. But the fear is inevitable. It's like, I've never gone through such a thing before. My first time going through an injection by myself was just last week when I went for a blood test. Can you imagine the fear I have whenever I think about it? I'll be inside all by myself. No one will be there.

What I wanna hear are words of comfort. To be honest, just words of comfort. But the thing is, those who know about this don't bother. They treat it as if nothing will be going on. They never once asked me how I'm feeling.

But it's alright. I'll comfort myself. Haha.

Anyway, sorry about all these entries recently. I just need an outlet to manifest all my fears and feelings. It's ok if you guys wanna just skip all these. I just wanna say that besides being occasionally irritated (due to fear, I swear!), I'm still me. :)

Love y'all.

Thanksforreading,

YSL ♥

2011-11-30T00:32:00.003+08:00

It's not that I want to keep things from both of you, but I don't want to worry you guys unnecessarily. I'm scared too, I really am, but it doesn't change anything. When things get really bad, I will definitely let you know. For now, it's still bearable and I'll just get through it by myself. Should a day come when I can no longer take it, I will inform you.

I just have to tell myself that I'm ok and I'll get through this. It's perfectly normal to feel scared even if others say it's gonna be a small thing and I'll be fine eventually. The type of fear I'm facing everyday is something I can't describe. With the advanced technology, it all the more isn't helping. What is Google for? It is for me to find out more about it and scare myself more.

For now, I guess I'll have to bear with the random episodes by myself and stop worrying others and panic for what lies ahead of me in the next few weeks.

But it's really alright to be scared. It's fine.

Goodnight,

YSL ♥

2011-11-23T23:56:00.002+08:00

I just have to tell myself that sometimes, it is perfectly alright to feel scared.

2011-11-23T23:15:00.013+08:00

Just a few weeks ago, I had brunch at Feng Shui Inn with my dearest family and the Sims! Yes, it is the high-end Cantonese restaurant at Crockfords Tower, Resorts World Sentosa. I'd have to say that the food was pretty decent, but it was way toooooo overpriced! Anyway, I enjoyed myself because the company was the best one could ever ask for! ♥

Aww, my sweet little darling! ♥

He was attempting to do a thumbs-up!

Stefan in a huge huge huge chair

So innocent looking...

My pretty little princess ♥

My beloved sister ♥

We had a good spread of dim sum! Had a heavy brunch that day and it's all thanks to the fine cuisine that they served!!!!!!!!!! ~!@#$%^&*()_+ Failed plan to cut down on food intake la....... :( But anyway, we did a little bit of (intangible) shopping at Victoria's Secret and Candylicious after brunch! :)

I love the body mist from VS but I don't like the new packaging. Yes, I know that it looks more high-class but I really really in all honesty prefer the previous packaging. Maybe I should go to Mustafa to buy. HAHAHAHA!!!

We left VS for Swarovski and gosh I love all the crystals. My future house should have such things! Need to find a rich husband soon. Kidding la...... but I really want collection of Swarovski crystals in my future house! #excited

Claire saw this huge jellybean from afar and she pulled us there and we ran to it. Hahaha I'm sure the guy inside must be shocked because we literally ran to him!

When we stepped into Candylicious, the kids were happy and so was I. They had fun pushing the little trolleys around while I had fun gawking at the cute cushions! Omg I was so tempted to buy every single one of them, but I know that the situation on my bed is pretty chaotic already so I should stop adding to my collection.

But...........

OMG SO CUTE RIGHT HOW TO NOT BUY :(((((((( Ok correction: I MANAGED TO RESIST THE TEMPTATION! Hahahaha.

But anyway, I think I'll be going back to buy both the soft heart pillow and my M&M's pillow! I really love them and I must have them! I feel like buying both yellow and brown M&M's pillow but I know my parents will slaughter me. Hahaha so guys, which should I buy?

We left Candylicious empty-handed... Yes, I think it was the first time all of us left with nothing! Hahahaha. Omg great achievement, sweethearts! Let's practice this more often alright! ♥♥♥

It suddenly poured and we didn't even know what went on. We only saw people running to the shelter and heard loud roars. We didn't know that it was raining because it wasn't really visible. Hahaha but I swear it was super sunny when it rained. I wonder what happened to the weather. It's totally screwed up!

After the fruitless trip to Candylicious, we made our way to the carpark. Bade goodbye and we went separate ways.

Ok bye.

Abruptendingbutwhocares,

YSL ♥

2011-11-20T13:56:00.003+08:00

Recently, I downloaded Instagram and I'm having lots of fun with it! I upload many random pictures there but you've gotta admit that some are really nice. LOL!!!!

You can tell that the pictures are really really really random, but I sincerely think that some of them are nice. LOL! Ok la, very thick-skinned right but..... LOL really very nice what. -.-

Follow me at yshilee! :)

Xoxo,

YSL ♥

2011-11-15T18:21:00.003+08:00

Why is it that when something doesn't go your way, you sound so sarcastic? You have to know that this happens in life and you just have to live with it. Sounding sarcastic and pissed off won't make things go your way.

The thing is, it's not as if I didn't inform you. I gave you notice a few weeks ago, and the thing is YOU don't remember it. It's not my freaking fault that your memory failed you. I was just reminding you.

DON'T FREAKING MAKE IT SOUND LIKE IT'S MY FREAKING FAULT THAT YOU CAN'T REMEMBER ME TELLING YOU WHEN I ACTUALLY DID 2 FREAKING WEEKS AGO.

I don't do it all the time and you should know it.

Spare me your sarcasm.

Sobloodypissedoff,

YSL ♥

2011-11-14T01:49:00.002+08:00

Everyone tells me not to worry, but they don't know the fear that I'm experiencing. I, too, know that it's not gonna be serious, I'll be fine, and things will be better after that, but I just can't help but to feel scared and worried for it.

Why do people keep asking me to chill and stop making things sound so serious?

It's not my fault that I'm going through this. It's not my fault that I'm feeling anxious over it. It's not my fault that I made things sound serious. I just can't help it.

If you were me, wouldn't you behave the same way too?

CanIstopreadingup,

YSL ♥

2011-11-11T23:03:00.002+08:00

I know that it isn't something very serious, but I keep scaring myself by reading up on it. But the information that I got from the net is somewhat different from what he had said. I know that it'll be safe, but somehow or rather, I'm really scared.

It is going to be my first time and I have no idea what to expect at all. I guess it is why I'm reading up so much about it. But with that comes more worries and anxiety, which are what I dislike. I hate the feeling that I'm experiencing now. It's like, there are about 2 more months, but I'm really really nervous already.

I know that things will turn out fine, but I just can't control myself from feeling worried. I don't think many of you will understand how I'm feeling now, but it really isn't anything good.

I'm so afraid of what's gonna happen in a few months' time. Really. The suspense is killing me.

Iamsonervous,

YSL ♥

2011-11-09T19:25:00.001+08:00

Do they know the feeling of being replaced?

2011-11-07T18:38:00.002+08:00

"Hard work always pays off. It doesn't always pay off immediately, but somewhere down the road, there is a reward for it."

If you're struggling and not seeing any positive results yet, hang in there. The best has yet to come. :)

Love,

YSL ♥

2011-11-06T16:55:00.002+08:00

Disney's The Lion King was debuted in Minneapolis, Minnesota in July 1997. The musical has been nominated and awarded umpteen times for different categories since then.

In March 2011, the Pride arrived in Singapore and they have received applause from more than 300,000 visitors over the 200+ performances. The Pride left Singapore's Marina Bay Sands in late October 2011. Over the short span of 7-8 months, they have garnered really good response from people living here. It has also created history in Singapore as it emerges as the country's most successful musical.

Disney's The Lion King trailer

Most of you should know that I'm a huge fan of that musical. I may have watched it 4 times, but I am sure I'm not eligible to be their biggest fan yet. It does not mean that the more times I watch it, the more it proves that I'm a bigger fan than those who watched it less than 4 times. However, I would not deny that I really really really love the Broadway musical and I am glad that it was brought to Singapore.

My command of English is not commendable, and I wouldn't want my limited vocabulary to underrate that fabulous musical. I wouldn't stress how wonderful a musical the Pride had performed. Those who have watched it before should know exactly how I feel. Somehow, I just can't find a right word to describe it. Even "perfect" isn't enough to emphasize how good they were.

I have selected a few videos of the performance to show you if you didn't watch the musical live. Some of them are performed in variety shows (as a tribute), and the quality of these videos isn't fantastic, but the vocals are enough to entice all of you.

Circle Of Life rehearsal

He Lives In You, Can You Feel The Love Tonight, Circle Of Life

Circle Of Life (onstage)

Circle Of Life (better quality but this isn't the real performance)

Shadowland

The Morning Report

He Lives In You (Reprise)

Can You Feel The Love Tonight

Hakuna Matata

King Of Pride Rock/Circle Of Life (Reprise)

How do you find them? I absolutely love these videos! Ever since I bought the CD from The Lion King store at Marina Bay Sands, I have been listening to them every single day. No joke, I really listen to them daily. It's like a Lion King fix that I need everyday.

The casts have done a splendid job and the acclamation that they have received is well-deserved. They are definitely worthy of the loud and genuine applause from the audience. I'm sure they know that their fans (me included) sincerely love their performance and appreciate their hard work. I hope that they will be back someday so that I can support them again.

The Pride has now moved on to elsewhere to bring joy to people around the globe. I'm going to miss the musical but I'd like to wish them success in every corner of the world.

I ♥

DISNEY'S THE LION KING

Note: This is definitely not going to be the last time that I blog about Disney's The Lion King. I really love the musical so so so extremely much that I might blog about it several times. Please pardon me and you are allowed to skip the posts about it. But you can't stop me from raving about it from time to time!!!!!!!

KudostothePride,

YSL ♥

2011-11-04T00:07:00.002+08:00

Specially for my friends ♥

I created this picture to let you guys know how much I cherish our friendship.

If you used to be my friend, thank you for being part of my life.

If you want to be my friend, thank you for that initiative.

If you are my friend, thank you for staying and I hope that we'll be friends forever.

Thank you for the memories.

Jet'aime,

YSL ♥

2011-11-02T01:05:00.001+08:00

The more I think about it, the more I feel disappointed. It was a promise that I never knew would be broken just like that. What the heck was I thinking when you said that? Did I really think I meant a lot to you? Apparently, no.

But they say that if one is afraid to lose something, he/she cares about it very much.

I am afraid of losing everything. Terribly afraid.

Goodnight,
YSL ♥

2011-10-31T00:23:00.001+08:00

Good night, my dear friends. Sleep well and have a sweet dream!

Xoxo,

YSL ♥

2011-10-29T00:17:00.000+08:00

I have downloaded a few apps on my iPhone to guide me through my weight loss project. I know I haven't been trying hard enough, but I promise to try 10000x harder this time round.

So far, I've been attempting to:

1) Drink lots of plain water and cut down on sweetened drinks

It's a very very very tough obstacle because I drink sweetened drinks most of the time. And unfortunately, I hated water since years ago. But it's alright, I'll persevere.

2) Exercise

Whenever I tell people that I vomit water after I jog, they tell me it's an excuse. What the shit.... But anyway, I've been skipping and I believe it will help. Did 100 double under's and 600 skips just now. Trying to do more!!!! I'll also go swimming regularly and maybe try jogging again.

3) Eat healthily

I will try to avoid unhealthy food (e.g. deep fried food) as much as possible. I'm sorry but I cannot resist chocolates. LOL I'm such a failure. But I actually read somewhere that says chocolates help in losing weight. Don't know how true it is but I'm gonna believe it.

I hope that my perseverance will pay off and let me get skinnier and lighter asap. I really hate being fat and I can't stand it anymore. If you do have any tips, please please please please please let me know!!!!!!

P.S. I said that I will cut down on sweetened drinks, but my slimming tea is sweet! What should I do? LOL.

Needtoloseweightx100000000,

YSL ♥

2011-10-28T23:15:00.008+08:00

I know I am slightly late but....... HAPPY DEEPAVALI!

On Wednesday, I met my favourite girls at Vivo for dinner. Ying and Linh didn't join us so Angie, Dar, Myvan, Siying and I went ahead! We ate at Long John Silver's. Myvan and Siying, being Myvan and Siying, used my phone to snap photos of themselves while I was queuing up...

But since both of you are so pretty, I shall forgive you. ♥

After dinner, we took a train to Little India! Yes, we braved the crowd and headed to the streets! It was my first time going to Little India on Deepavali. I have to admit that at first, I kinda dreaded it because people who know me well should know that I abhor crowds. But to my surprise, it wasn't as crowded as I expected!

Many shops were closed but there were still streams of people walking pass us. We jaywalked and when the car was so near us, all of us just stood there until someone from the back shouted at us to run. I swear it was a scary experience! Hahaha.

We searched high and low for shops that provided henna service. Siying then went to ask one of the shop owners where we could find one, but he said that because it was Deepavali, no one would be doing business. I was disappointed because our main point of visiting Little India was to get our henna done.

We decided that we shouldn't give up. Since we were there already, we might as well walk a few more rounds to look for shops that did henna. We walked over to Tekka Centre (I can't really remember the name) and when we took the escalator up, the first shop that we saw provided henna service!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

We took turns to get our henna done and I have to say that even though the henna is pretty smelly, it's fun to do it once in a while! :)

My henna

Siying's
Myvan's
Dar's
Angie's

How do you like our hennas? :)

After getting inked..... hahahahhaa I just made us sound like we got tattoos on. LOL I was just joking. After decorating our skin (LOL), we went to Mustafa for a while. Yes, totally embracing the Indian festival. :)

I had a great night spent with my favourite girls. If only Ying and Linh (and the rest of the Clique) could join us!!!!! :( Well, it's alright though. I believe we'll have many many many more chances!

FRIENDS FOREVER XX ♥♥♥

Loveyouguyssooooooomuch,

YSL ♥

2011-10-28T20:31:00.001+08:00

Weekly family dinner at town.
Weekly family gathering.
Weekly clique meet-up.
Weekly sleepover at Claire's.

Seems like I have lost all of these.

2011-10-27T23:21:00.004+08:00

People I love matter a lot to me. What they say will doubtlessly leave a huge impact on me.

Last week, I was kinda affected by what some people told me. They told me that if I am going to be a childcare/kindergarten teacher in future, I will not have a bright future and that I will be wasting my time. They told me that a childcare/kindergarten teacher does not need a certificate and that any Tom, Dick or Harry can be one.

I tried my very best not to retaliate. But they just kept going on and on until I was on the verge of asking them to keep quiet. They kept insisting that Early Childhood is a very simple thing. I won't emphasize on how much I hate being looked down on. I have experienced this many many many times and I've gotten used to it.

People say that teachers often think they are the best. I think otherwise. People only respect primary, secondary, tertiary teachers. No one gives a shit about preschool teachers. I'm not saying that we need recognition, but at least give us the due respect.

I've never ever said that any job is inferior to the educator's role. I don't understand why some people can be so insensitive and say it straight in your face that your job is not good. I don't like people who compare jobs. Everyone can shine in different area.

A cook cooks.

A designer designs.

A tailor sews.

A doctor treats.

A constructor worker builds.

A painter paints.

A pilot flies.

A singer sings.

A teacher teaches.

How can you say that one job is inferior to the other? A pilot definitely earns a lot more than a childcare teacher. But if you give the pilot a class of 20 toddlers, I doubt he can handle it. Similarly, if you give the teacher a plane to fly, she won't be able to do so.

Everyone is specialized in their own way. Don't judge because of the job scope. It isn't nice.

I hope that people will start learning to be more sensitive to others' feelings. Please do not look down on any job just because what they are doing seem easy to you.

For more information of what childcare teachers (or what you all label as "nannies") do, please go to http://www.bls.gov/oco/ocos170.htm and take a look.

Every job is equal. Don't look down on anyone just because his/her job seems easier than yours.

Immunetothisnonsense,

YSL ♥